Visited gonggong at 8.45am. i dont know why i just cant control. it's the same feeling i had that time at the hospital.

Well maybe i am just someone who cant stand seeing people around me suffering.

All he wants is to being able to stand and walk. going downstairs to look at things he used to see. talking to people was what his favourite pastime was. but now he's bounded by his legs and all he faces are the walls.

Dad's knee problem is coming back again. i seriously hope that it will recover soon. soon..

When will the world stop fighting. so many lives have been taken and what's the point of taking more when we will be gone sooner or later? cast away our races and religion we are all humans arent we? -hoping for world peace. peace comes with a price to pay. those lives sacrificed.

i hope you know how much i cherish things you gave me. These are things that are so special to me. -i would never throw away that packet of sweets.oh yea no way.

if you were someone else..
i wouldnt even care a single bit..

grab some drinks and head for the beach.
hear the waves roar and watch that sun set in that blue ocean.

i dont believe.
and i never will believe that.
2 different person cannot stay together.

if they can understand each other.
they will sooner or later accept each other.
or maybe adjust each other so that both can be happier.
to make their relationship a better one.

yea sure the 2 of them will encounter problems.
big or small.
arguements and fights.
through these things they find out more about the other party.

understanding is just something i think.
is essential to make a relationship better.

251108 Tuesday

Baby's final theory test was @ 8pm but before that we had some disagreements. it's all over so let's not care about it anymore. There was some preparation for the brigade 40th anniversary so booked out late.

baby and family were waiting for me outside the camp (so sorry to make all of you wait so long) then we went to upper thomsom for dinner. ordered myself a plate of yang zhou fried rice while baby ordered salted fish fried rice. the dinner was quite nice especially the roast duck.

went down to SSDC (arr what memories it holds) and darling went for her test.looks like she's quite stressed so i decided to cheer her on by making faces at her to make her laugh. (hope she didnt forget any info in the process)

she PASSED!just like my elder sister but me?i failed once due to the fact that i couldnt control my emotions inside.lol.what's left is her practical test!.way to go baby. :) so proud of you.went to serangoon for celebration and we ended up at ice3 which serves desserts.

the atmosphere and the settings were very comfy. so how you just feel very ease and i probably can chat for hours sitting down here. we had alot of fun and laughter despite the disagreement earlier on.i really love you.i hope you know that.and i always will.

no i wont give you up for some other girl that you think is better than you.
you are more than enough for me.
i love you...

261108 Wednesday

took off today so that i can accompany darling down to People Association for her ballet exam.went down to visit gonggong. found out that his leg is quite weak now but he really wishes to go down to talk to people. maybe i will do something about that.

went to school (i mean nyp) to meet up with baby before her parents drove us to PA.went to cheers to get her cheese crackers but asked her to cut down due to the high salt concentration.went to macpherson road for lunch.

ordered deep fried dumpling noodle while we also had other nice food.yummy...

shall add on tomorrow. hear you soon baby.

21/11/08 Friday

Took off and went to cineleisure with baby. we had lunch at Xin Wang restaurant. the food's seriously nice and very tempting. i just feel like having a little of everything they have there!. but the most interesting thing that got me is how they use metal mugs for drinks. it's nostalgic and you hardly see this type of stuffs around unless you head down to Hong Kong style restaurants.

we watched Madagascar 2:Escape to Africa. Like it's first movie the second movie is seriously hilarious and kinda heart touching too. Not everyone is the same. you could be better in this field but others could beat you in other stuffs. my say?. go and watch this show even when you have 8bucks left in your wallet. it's worth the laugh.

walked towards wisma atrium to take a look at the levi's jeans. they are having this promotion of trading in your old jeans (any brands) for a 50bucks discount over their new jeans worth more than 100 bucks. meaning you get around 50% discount. the old jeans that they collect will be sent over to poor countries for charitable acts. Brought along the jeans that the army supplied us when ours got burnt. it was kinda big and not very suitable for me so might as well see if i can get something nicer?. but in the end baby found this pair that was so suitable for her and it really looks nice on her so bought the jeans for her. :) finally got her first pair of levi's.

while darling went for her ballet lesson i went back home to have my dinner before i go over to her house!.hehe.

22/11/08 Saturday

Raise and shine!. woke up with baby in my arms. arr..if only time can stop here.. :) baby's dad had to do some delivery to kelinery road before we head to chinatown for breakfast!. well the 1buck porridge and bee hoon was really worth it but i think the best combination is still you tiao with the porridge. the porridge was abit different from those you'd find. normal porridge is kinda thick but this porridge is more watery yet it still contains rich flavours of fish and peanuts in it. nice.

went over to the dessert stall and we had almond and black sesame paste. it's quite rich in flavour and it's thick~. nice. went down the stairs to visit the wet market. honestly speaking it's my first time here i mean chinatown wet market well maybe my parents or relatives may have brought me here before but i dont really remember. we watched how the fish mongers slaughter the catfish. baby was overwhelmed by it and i tried to calm her down.

baby went for her rehearsal for her performance at night and i went back home to rest for awhile and do my secret mission before going over to help her out.BUT i also never do much thing at the community centre.lol.i was the cameraman for the night.lol.

Me with my darling dearest.

Make no mistake.That's me.lol.

The girls.

the performance was smooth and everything was good. mum and my 2 sisters came down to support baby. thank you all. :) went home and continue on my secret mission.

23/11/08 Sunday

woke up at 7am and started preparing for my secret mission. visited grandpa before making my way to baby's. she was still sleeping and her sleeping pose was very cute. i seldom see her sleeping like that. Gave her the surprise and i am glad that she loved it.

baby i hope you like the D.I.Y. calender i did for you. it's not as nice as those commercial types but it's how i show i love you.i always will. :) Happy 7th Month Anniversary. :)

baby i dont really know what happened today but i want you to know that i will not leave you. i will not give you up no matter what happens. i am sticking to you and you are sticking to me remember?.i love you. i always will.

i wanted to wake up at 8am to start the brand new day but i slept in until 9am. Waited online until baby came online too. We were intending to watch madagascar 2 so we were deciding a place to watch. Ang Mo Kio hub seemed like to be a good place cuz we havent been there for sometime and that was where we had our first date. aarr...nice memories of our first date issint it?.

i could barely wake up at 5am and dad was like:

"ooi 5am liao wake up wake up"
"okok..."

*dad goes to kitchen*

"ooi still sleeping ar?"
"orh..."

*roll off my bed*

walked myself to mrt station and travelled all the way to dhoby ghaut station with my eyes close most of the time.crossed the concourse and took all the way to harbourfront.

waited for the rest of the group members to come. And as expected Mr.Herman Chua was the last one to arrive. (do i need to lay the red carpet for you???ask him latest 7.30am and he clocked in at 7.29am -_-)

and what's the first thing he say to me?

Herman:"hey you know who am i anot?"

Me:"Herman...?"

Herman:"No...i am a hunter look behind my back"

*turn my head towards his back*

we all get what you mean mr.sexhunter. -_-"

moved on to the hawkercentre where we have to wait for the shuttlebus to sentosa. I dont know why but it always show how inefficient a*my can be. No planned timeslot for individual units and there's only 1 freaking bus to ferry the whole 200+ people to sentosa. -_-

squeezed our way into the queue cuz there were 2 different queue lines and we waited for 30minutes without moving from where we stood 30minutes ago. And the best thing to happen? the botaks started climbing over the queue gate and landed infront of us. i just dont understand why.

actually it's been quite sometime since i landed my foot on sentosa and omg it changed alot yea i couldnt believe this is the sentosa i used to know.it used to be more of a green little island with more of mother nature.Now right infront of my eyes were more and more buildings with more coming up in the future.

luckily the sand, the sun and the water are all still there where they used to be. i guess i like to hang out at the beach more than i hang out at clubs with smoke as thick as temples and people like how you did packed sardines. maybe that's why i like the movie "forgetting sarah marshall" just love the settings.

initially i was just thinking of walking around the island looking at new stuffs as well as old attractions but my teammates think otherwise. they were just looking for places to sit down and eat and drink. i cant play alone yea?. so i just let them do whatever they wanted to. then there was this funny scene when one of my teammate said this to me:

"hey IC control your men leh"
"sorry i am just here to distribute information to you all and then whatever you all want to do i dont care."

lol.sorry dude wrong teammates for this race.i aint complaining about them though.

woke up at 6am today.was abit tired but i cant wait to see you again and of course our long awaited picnic at botanic garden!.mum already packed all the stuffs into the cooler bag and i just need to stuff them all into the big green bag that i was supposed to bring over to baby's house.

just when i was about to alight i found out that all the people just crowd around the door.like how i am supposed to alight when all of you just cluster there and form a barrier?.please at least let people alight first before you board.

i managed to squeeze out of the human barrier and off i went to baby's house.packed our picnic basket and baby's dad drove us to our destination.

ahh...what a bright sunny day~so after alighting from the car we went to find ourselves a nice spot to settle down and start our picnic!

after venturing into the wild...i mean the garden we found ourselves infront of this stage with forals all around us.i find that it's quite enjoyable and fun to come to the garden to have a small picnic with people you love like your gf/bf or family members.No need for expensive food or wine just absorb the warm sunrays and be back to mother nature.i really like this type of outings. :)

i really enjoyed myself with miss sunshine.just lying around and having a heart to heart talk. Nothing beats getting to know more about someone you love.

to love is to understand and accept...

we decided to do something about the excess food we brought so we invented the 'you-drop-the-grapes-you're gone' game.lost the first match and i have to run to a nearby tree and act like a monkey BUT i won the second game which baby have to run around the area infront of where we were sitting. :) it's not all about the punishment but the fun we had. :)
cant really express my love to you. although we quarrel and disagree with each other sometimes but all i want is to have a nice heart to heart talk or chat with you. to understand you more. slowly bit by bit. i know it's tough but baby let's go through all these together ok? i love you. i always will. :)

after our picnic baby's dad picked us up and took us to have a proper no i mean a superby meal. we have tasted a few hainanese curry rice stalls by now but the pork chop at this stall near bukit merah is totally like crackers!tasty ones that is.the other dishes are more like normal but the pork chop got both baby and me craving for more.lol.we went to another coffeeshop to have dessert.

i really enjoyed myself today. especially the time at the botanic gardens i really hope that we can go for picnics at other places soon. maybe sentosa? before going to underwater world??. hehe. i love you baby.

set alarm at 7am.
woke up at 7am.
*click*
went back to sleep.
woke up at 8am.
went back to sleep.
woke up at 9am.
still lazing around at 9.15am.
finally got my butt out of the bed at 9.30am.

i really dont know why i am sleep late this few days.
lol.
had breakfast and chatted with dad about the insurance he bought for me.
went online.

sorry to make you disappointed this morning but i hope you did get surprised just now. :)
glad that you enjoyed lunch with me around. :)
i enjoyed myself too luh. :)

went to ntuc to buy stuffs for picnic tomorrow!.
hehe.
i am so looking forward to this picnic. :)

wasnt meeting ah foo so wanted to give baby a surprise.
so rushed all the way there.
while walking to woodlands mrt station.
there was this malay lady who was riding on a bicycle behind me.
i believe that i was listening to music so i couldnt hear her rings or whatever.(wonder if she did)
then she just like came up and shouted something that i could make up to be:
"ooi!deaf ar?"
and i was kinda pissed by her actions.
i was walking by the side of the path.
and it's PESDESTRAIN PATH.
aunty do you know it's illegal to ride your bicycle on it?.
talk about being politeness. :(

rushed all the way to school and saw baby's parents in the car.
waved to them and i rushed up the stairs.
found the empty room. -_-
called baby.
saw her.

operation surprise baby commenced...
target located...
objective:try to surprise her from behind...
strategy:rush all the way down without her seeing me...

result:i came out from the wrong side...
mission failed...

but i hope it did made you happy. :)

went to mama house for dinner.
thank you (to mama) for inviting me over.
i really enjoyed dinner and i felt so much like part of their family. :)

baby i love you.
i always will. :)

this is my 3rd time feeling this bad.
how stupid could i get.
i really hate myself being like this.

i really hope i can get a second chance.
i really love you.
i dont want to lose you.

someone tell me what to do...

maybe you already known this.
but i just want to let you know that.

i am so madly in love with you.

never had i have this type of feeling before.
i admit that being single gives more freedom.
but i really prefer being in a relationship.
it can be fun too.
unless i am too boring?.

i felt i belonged.

other than my family and relatives.
i felt like i was accepted by other people.
it's a very nice feeling that i will never forget.

i love you.

the first time i was accepted by another person.
maybe it's the appearance that brought us together.
but believe me.
all these days after knowing you.
i fell in love with you.
your character.
your personality.
your everything.

over and over again.

there are times when i felt insecure.
not confident enough.

thank you for reassuring me.

i will stay by you.
this i promise you.
you will be my koala bear.
i will be your tree for life.

i love you.

there maybe dark clouds and rain in our relationship.
but you know?
you never fail to bring sunshine into my life.
hope i gave a new meaning to your life too.
a good one.

i love you.