headache.headaches.headachess.

seems to me that i really need some rest to get it all sorted out.

it's not where have the stars gone.more like what's missing in my life today.see what it could do?lol.tell me when's the time to call?.

good night.

'somewhere high.be it clouds or stars.as long the feelings right.'

yes...finally...exercise cut...

was supposed to end at 12 noon and as expected it dragged all the way until 6.30pm.we rushed to tear down everything asap.they should had filmed it down because we never moved so fast before.lol.from top we were like little tiny ants moving nest.

took everything back on my friends' cars.AND we had to set up again.this time in the planning room.although it wasnt FULL set up but it was still a headache because i already had a headache to begin with.

finished everything.went back bunk.lol.luckily never took the tonner back.it broke down twice on the highway.ended up towed back.clear the stores and went back bunk.decided to head out for some supper.it was 11.45.my friend was tired so i drove his car out.lol.super sensitive steering wheels.step-handled handbrake.light bodyweight.

drove to woodlands 888 to eat bua chor mee.quite nice.gave all the pork organs to my friend.lol.drove back and reached at 12.30am.went up.bathed in an unlit toilet.kinda scary..especially when the tap beside mine was on all the time.

slept.

slept.

sergeant came in.asked us whether do we want to go for breakfast.i didnt had the mentality to response.turned.continued ZZzz.PAISEH sergeant.woke up with nicely packed breakfast on our cabinets.super nice of them.but had no time at all.changed and went over to planning room.i dont understand they need all of us inside that room.somemore mr.OC himself came in and squeezed with us.hello.suffocating liao.in the end some of us was asked to leave.-_-.why am i serving such indecisive people.

went back and checked stores.checked LAN cables till my eyes got the '1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8' image.seriously need a break.laid on the floor for awhile.new cables.thanks.just what i needed.sergeant called.asked me to go over to headquaters.to get my towel.lol.was so busy tearing down.they just anyhow packed my stuffs.left my towel with my ops officer.lucky he never throw away my beloved towel.come back to papa.you definitely need a wash.

had lunch.still having the styrofoam package.sian.decided to run awhile.really it was just awhile.felt my lunch at my throat so no choice have to stop and rest.when i thought i have time to rest.time to start work again.preparations for the 'boring' hour later.went.came back.took my friend's car to return com to 6sig.super heavy.imagine 1 LCD monitor stacked on top of a hp CPU.that's how heavy it is.went back.took off my top.here comes the call.

back to work AGAIN.i am not complaining because at least i am learning stuffs.skipped parade.lucky.it was super long.we sat at the cook house and watched them stand there like coconut trees.didnt see any swaying today.lol.had to wait till the sun starts to set because cant see the projector image.went back bunk and bathed.went back.adjusted.'boring' hour started.

see all the hungry nsmen chiong out for their food.scary.while we 3 went around and cut queue.eat abit here abit there.lol.best was the traditional icecream with biscuit.sing.sing.dance.dance.i wonder how many people were watching.we just chit chat among ourselves.lol.

it just doesnt feel right.maybe history might just repeat itself.

'where had all the stars gone?'

Yes!It's the 2nd last day of the exercise.hope by tomorrow noon it ends and we can pack up and go back camp.

went up to bunk to rest first until 3.15am before heading down to the CP to take over shift.the bunk is full of mozzies.i think they maybe some new special breed because the swellings are so big and itchy.worst they went to attack the area in between the toes.my feets are like rubbing each other for the entire 5 hours in bunk.

heard that there was this 'one star' personnel who is considered very very high ranking in the main CP yesterday.but he never came over so i also dont care.lol.we watched some hong kong drama series all the way till 9.30am.and not forgetting about solitare.

itch.itch.scratch.scratch.

yesterday's shift was the most 'fun' part due to the heavy rain.it came suddenly so we were all unprepared.some parts of the CP were unshelthered so water just leak in.some areas were so serious they look like mini 'waterfalls'.but luckily the area around the server was quite safe.but we still sticked a layer of plaster above our heads to prevent.

actually if the water gets to the server we could have ended the exercise.lol.we might also end up being toasted and 'bua' butter by those bigshots.who ask them to give us such a 'good' CP.stayed infront of the server all the way till 3.30am before the other 2 came down to take over.we (me,qian bao and sergeant) went up bunk and slept.

took off my boots and tadah.there's this bruise on near the ankle on my feet.ouch.all thanks to the reserviceguy who was using the plastic.didnt hold on to it and the whole roll just 'timber~pom!' on my boots.let's hope this type of 'hao liao' dont happen to me anymore.

i dont know why but i think i was quite depressed on my way back.maybe because i didnt had enough sleep?or maybe it's just that i think too much.but luckily i have you to cheer me up.thank you.*muacks!*hahaha.but seriously i rarely do this.well unless they are guys.(brotherly love.) ok that's kinda disgusting.lol.

going to have dinner and bathe before heading to marsiling station to lobang my officer's car.

wish i had a car..

actually i wanted to wake up at 9am to go for a short run but then i overslept.had loti and kaya for breakfast.went online and do stuffs.

decided to play with the weights i got from uncle yesterday.i felt very weird.this's my first time wearing weights at my ankle.staggered here and there.did standard and spider pushups.i realised i sweat alot at my ankles there.lol.

went down to buy lunch and visit grandpa.he's gloomy today.due to the 4 walls he's facing.felt gloomy too.went back up and ate lunch.watched tv all the way till now.

have plans in mind but i dont think chances are high.

woke up by mum.she pushed me to the side of the wall because she wanted to take clothes on the window frame.lazed on the bed.rub eyes.sit up.lie back on my bed.lol.here she comes again.

went for a run.it was quite fast paced.that explains the slight pain in my ankles.there was this uncle who was like cheering for me.then i didnt know what to do so i just smiled and zoomed past him.lol.went to the jetty there for the sea breaze.then i saw this malay auntie pouring used dirty water back into the sea.'you are eatting what you throw'.slowly walked back to the spot my mum and aunts are practising yoga.

again.i saw a most probably china guy brushing teeth near the playground.nothing's wrong with brushing teeth but he guggled and just spit everything onto the ground.'hey there's a toilet here.they are not just built here to bai mei'.sat on the bench and read my march edition of men's health.seriously i think men's health is very informatic especially on health issues.

drove uncle's vios back to his house to pick up my cousin.yes that one whom complaint about my driving skills.lol.same old kopi shop.same old orders.we ordered porridge.black carrot cake.'yu tiao'.changed my kopi-C (evaporised milk) to kopi-O (totally no milk).i read about lesser calories with O than C.so decided to give it a try.not bad.not bad at all.

drove aunt back to her house before driving to causeway point.mum wanted to see if the chingay floats were there.so i made a round.saw.confirm going there later.went back home.bathed.with some songs along.

watched 'shi jie zhen mei li'.it was on Japan.okinawa.haha.i like the koi (carp) kite ceremony which resemble the growing up of kids in Japan.went to visit grandpa after that show.

lesson learnt today:
'so what if you earn so much money.what's the point if you cant even live happily.a simple life will do.'-he certainly doesnt deserve all these.

it reminds me of those elderly working as cleaners.i cant help but feel sorry for them.so old liao still have to work so hard.what is this world becoming?.

went back home and prepare to go to causeway point.thought we were taking bus but in the end mum wants taxi.reached.as usual mum just throw everything including that BRIGHT green bag to me.i sure looked uncle.took photos for them and mum took some for me.shall upload tomorrow. :) but i was not focusing on the camerwoman.i was trying to scan.search.look out.looked at my hp.then these bunch of indians came from behind and asked me to help them take photos.ok.took.they wanted to take with my family.i was like 'HUH?!' totally speechless for around 1 minute.sis didnt want so i told him 'i take with you lor.' lol. it felt super weird.

hopped on taxi to ah ma house.same order for me please :) ah ma's homemixed coffee.all the 'jing hua' was in it because it was the last cup.all the base inside.lol.took dinner.they wanted poker so gave what they wanted.and as usual lost money.but thanks to your luck :) i reduced my loss.

went over to the temple there and waited.waiting.waited.sisters start complaining so mum lost.democratic party won.i was the neutral party.lol.actually i was on the lookout again.for you.

today's a good day especially just now.i was supposed to humour you and in the end you put a smile on me. thank you. :)

my eyelids.kinda heavy now.closing on my eyes.just like those mrt trains.

door closing.du.du.du.du.du.

it operates just like the train doors.anything stuck halfway closing.it opens automatically.

this afternoon i was staring at the airshow website for quite sometime.before i decided to go into my room and take out my feb issue of men's health.went over to ah ma house.dad and mum hold hands go buy toto.throw me their stuffs and i 'da bao xiao bao' bring upstairs.it doesnt look good especially the bright green colour.

coffee for you?even my ah gong knows what i wanted.sat down and read some chinese papers.cousin came with her dad and mum.from a peaceful living room to a lively 1.soon people 'yi ge jie yi ge' come and the lively turned 'marketly' especially when the 'Fu Lu So' gathered.which individually are my mum and aunts.

felt hungry so i decided to go and grab my fried rice and stuffs.after the main dish comes the fruits.i ate alot of fruits.i guess.i had about 5-6 slices of pear.3 oranges and 3 of the 'i dont know what name' fruit.it has the shape of the pear but it's red on the outside.has alot of fibre inside.they call it the 'jum bu'.lol.

went down with cousins to the basar balam.my cousin wanted to buy taiwan sausage.ended up buying siew mai also.guess it wasnt really nice cos she pushed the last piece to me.i pushed it away like 'tai ji' haha.went over to watson and grabbed my march issue of men's health.i wonder how am i supposed to finish jan, feb and march together.guess i just have to play 'mini-minedi-mini-mo'.met aunts on the way so joined them on a journey to the 'mei mei' shop behind library.i also dont know why they call it 'mei mei'.the new biore white and black beads havent arrive yet so have to wait.they actually sell shampoos,foam baths and toiletries much cheaper than what you can get outside.

went back up and played a few rounds of poker.seriously i am in a series of bad luck.all 12-15 points.and as usual i lost $$.enough for 1 airshow ticket.lol.

got to turn in soon cos tomorrow morning going for a jog at the 'haunted' park.maybe go see whether the 3 stones are still buried down there.lol.what's installed next in the afternoon will have to wait.

Finally can book out from PLC.

the moment i entered the cp yesterday.i saw a whole bunch of 'Bao Ching Tian's.it seems like they were quite unhappy about the arrangement for the event today morning.those on morning shift yesterday was supposed to book out and come back in today morning just for the water rudby.sat down beside the Justice Baos and listened.

this new OC is quite 'mafan'.i understand that everything is just a safety precaution.but i think he brought it too over.'gai zou de zou le' left 5 people inside the CP.1 of my bunkmate,my sergeant and 2 other reservicemen.we did our own things.i was playing solitare so now i am quite an expert at it liao.nah still far from being expert.

sergeant then started playing songs.he sang along.i sang along.quite alot of retro songs but it's still very nice.haha.'one night in beijing..~'at around midnight we shut down the server due to the shortage of oil for the generator.went back bunk and rest till 7am.

went back CP and set up everything.went back to server table and sleep.ZZzz.ZZzz.until they all finish the water rudby.heard it was quite violent.my friend's uniform was torn and his feet was bleeding.heng i wasnt there~.waited.waited.waited.signal given and we went to tear down the stuff.scared that if it rains today or tomorrow the stuffs will shortcircuit.

got a taxi ride from sergeant to bukit panjang.took a bus to marsiling mrt and walked home.bathed and had duck rice for lunch.i have been having too much duck rice recently.time to cut down on that.

going to ah ma house later.

'one more try for one more chance.'

just when i thought it's gone.

it's back again.it's been sometime since i caught a flu.

can someone turn off the running nose for me?.i hate flu-s.

hope it will go away tonight because we only have 3 person doing all the stuff.less people.more tasks for everyone.

uncertainty maybe my biggest obstruction right now.

'i stopped in my tracks.once again.'-hesitation*

Just came back from pasa lebar camp after my first night shift last night.

Had dinner at home.quite a feast because it was the last day of new year.time surely flies.met qianbao at woodlands and went back camp together.went back bunk to put our stuffs and return to cp.

the initial plan was to stop at 11pm.but somehow people disappeared so we have to work 24hours.went to take a short nap at around 1.30am till 4am.worked all the way till 8am before changing over to the morning shift guys.

it was a lonely night i guess.

got to go back later at same time.

'i was thinking of you all the time.'

i really hope that i did..i mean at least cheered you up abit.lol.i dont even know why am i posting this.

'my true intentions'

finally back from pasa lebar camp.actually could have come back yesterday night but have to fall in so early so stayed back to helped out.

basically the things i have been doing these few days: set up laptops.maintain the networks.troubleshoot.learn new stuffs.do extra stuffs. and i still have 1 more week of these to go.god bless me.

it's kinda scary when i was bathing alone and that whole block is like totally empty.until my friend came along and said that he's not going back home.actually he's like the main actor for this exercise.the server was his 'baby'.that's what he claimed.lol.maybe oneday he will pass down his 'baby' to me when he ORD.sian.

Brigade Commander had a meeting with all of us including the reservice 'uncles'.he said something which touched me.'do you like it when people slap your loved ones?would you stand aside and watch them do that?i will never allow that.that's why i am wearing this green uniform.'i would probably go all out if i were in that situation.

enough of the emo stuff.here's what going to happen tomorrow.should be going for a morning jog before heading down to grandparent's shop to visit them.seriously must make use of time now.after which is go back to pasa lebar camp.

i feel kinda sad for my friend who just broke up with his gf and now he has to do all these stuff.especially when he's the one doing most of the stuff.tried consoling him and helping him out as much as i can.he told me something before he went home.'good guys dont last cuz they are just too good' guess he's super depressed.

'i felt lost when i heard nothing from you.i am waiting for you.my cinderella.'

i have lesser than 10minutes to post this.countdown starts now.

ok.hmmm..basically today is quite easy.woke up at 10am.again by mum.haha.took breakfast and used computer.just the usual stuff.msn.friendster.facebook.your blog.my blog.

decided to apply for NUS even though i dont think they will even consider my application.whatever.let them earn their $10 application fee.haha.NUS is more tedious than NTU because have to send poly result, o'level result and birth certificate to them.More MONEY for the stamp.lol.

went downstairs to visit grandpa.heard from my dad he slipped and hurt his forehead.kinda worried so went to visit.there were bruises around his eyes.he said that he fall short on a few inches on the table so slipped hit his forehead near the eyes.he even told me about how he used saliva to rub the 'ou chei' then the swelling went down.still very cheerful.still talked about politics.yes yes.maybe i should had went down everyday during secondary school.like that my humanities wouldnt have been C5.maybe A1?haha.carried the mandarin orange pot from the shop to my house.i tried holding it using 1 hand and the other hand sms.halfway the hand cannot take it.must support.haha.1 more plant to my mum's collection.actually she didnt want the plant it's grandma who didnt want it.then use my mum as an excuse to bluff me to carry it all the way home.

waited at home for lunch.i felt as if i were one of the children in South Africa.poor kids.went online awhile before you went to rest.then went to ah ma house.ate dinner and drank coffee.played a few rounds of poker then came back.

have more confidence in yourself.you are beautiful.that explains why you are on tv!haha.cameraman has good taste.ok.i have to go change liao.update another time!!!=)

'wake up...wake up..wake up!' that's my mum.*stretch stretch**close eyes for a while*got up and went to wash up.took my great aunt's car to sembawang park for a run while the aunties go for their usual yoga.uncle's working so cant pick us up which means no porridge for breakfast today.haha.picked up my mp3 and went for a run.i think i ran like 8-10km for around 45 minutes.continued with my pull ups and stuffs.went to the small jetty to enjoy the sea breeze.as usual.

went back home.bathe.had 1 egg and 1 kosong prata for breakfast.played PS2.went online awhile.went back to PS2.had late lunch.went to my room to read magazines.seriously i havent even finish reading my January issue of men's health yet.while reading i realise i wasnt feeling quite right today.felt like my morale was quite low.maybe..but i am not sure.

went to ah ma house in yishun at about 4.30pm because had to go bai tai shui.met cousins and aunts at the void deck.there was this malay ritual at the opposite car park there so the aunties 'kpo' went over and see see.naturally i was dragged along.according to a malay boy we met the ceremony is usually for entertainment.this time it's someone's birthday.there are some guys 'riding' horses made of cardboard.they are said to be possessed and will go after those wearing red.unfortunately we did have someone in the group wearing red.to be exact it's more than 1 but my sis's clothes was the most outstanding red.horsie came running over.people started running all over.my cousin and i were standing there like lamp posts.lol.

continued our way to the temple.read my predictions for this rat year.wealth and health not bad.but relationship wise not that good.it bothered me quite alot.i think.went to see the python.it's eyes were wide opened and staring back.it basically just stays there motionlessly.sometimes i wonder how often does it move.next up:bai tai shui.we had a tray of things which include 1teabag,1bag of cookies,1 set of incense papers and 1 hongbao.have to 'pai pai zuo' sit down there and wait. after around 10minutes we went to take our places and do the ritual.due to the horrible writing on the paper my name was read out twice.doesnt sounds right when you convert them to teochew.'HUAT LA!'and i think i gave those people infront of me a scare.they like 'tremble' abit.went in and placed the offerings.i think i got addicted to the 'HUAT LA' i repeated it wherever i went.burn incense paper.HUAT LA.go play with the lucky number machine.HUAT LA.even when my cousin bought canned drinks.HUAT LA.so everything HUAT LA.lol.

took a walk along the pasa balam before heading back to ah ma house.had quite a feast for dinner.prawns,yun tun,fish,pork,corns and 'man guang'.took the final cup of ah ma's coffee.nice.went down after dinner to walk walk awhile before rushing up to catch chingay.went to 'lau yu sheng' after the show.HUAT LA.again.lol.played some blackjack before heading back home.watched tv and then online did stuffs till now.going to wait.

'if you believe it now.it will certainly turn out that way.'

Den.Den.Den.DEN...Exercise phalnet preparation ready to go.

woke up like 5.30am today.seriously i really didnt feel like waking up.went to wash up with my 'half-opened' eyes.went down to lecture room too load up the stores a.k.a. laptops, desktops and projectors onto the tonner.as the others woke up late my bunk just went ahead for breakfast.lor mai gai and cha siew bao.went back and took my bunkmate's nissan latio instead of the tonner.more comfortable.=)

reached pasa lebar camp which is located in jurong at about 7.15am.went over to the canteen and ordered coffee.yeah!certainly freshened me up.the CPs came around 7.30 but we waited until 8.30 for the big shots to come and give instructions.CPs have to adjust adjust and adjust.wasted time.

as soon as the CPs are fixed.we just took our stores and chiong.our initial mission is to set up everything before 11.30am so that we can book out after 12.we managed to get everything up at 11.15am.waited.waited.then the reservicemen came in.they had to learn everything in order for them to carry on with the exercise.

waited.arrows shot.waited.arrows keep coming.i almost fell asleep at around 4pm.cant take it so went to the canteen to buy JiaJia liang teh and yun ton mee. went back and tried to stay awake. played solitare to keep me awake. big shots had meeting. bad news came. said that there will be another meeting at 6pm. no choice.

5.00pm..6.00pm!! yea!walked from the site to the bus stop outside.seriously it was quite far.but i am determined to book out.haha.took bus to boon lay and then train back to woodlands. i dont know why but quite alot of people were staring at us. i am too tired to think about that.

hope everything went well for your chingay.it doesnt matter.you are beautiful.

'i dont know what's going on in your mind.but i gave myself a chance.'

tick tock..tick tock..

time seems abit too fast for me.it's valentine's already and i overslept.happy valentine's day!.the whole bunk was late for breakfast again.and as usual they 'abandoned' us.so we walked ourselves to the cookhouse.breakfast was good with bread, hotdog, scramble egg, hashbrown and red beans.but still no COFFEE! -_-''

went back and changed to smart 4 (formal uniform) for a parade. looks like i never really forget my drill commands.heng.but i was struggling to keep awake during the division commander's talk.teddy bear turned into angry bear when he saw 'swaying coconut trees' and people moving here and there.scary.

went back and set up CP again.as usual the big shots are nag nag nagging all the way.went over to the isolated signal cell and played solitare.not long before i was arrowed.arrows arrows arrows~cant miss all of them.just like a big target board trying to 'siam' all the arrows.IMPOSSIBLE.worst still they left me and my friend in the cell and they all went for lunch.talk about teamwork.

went back office and relax under the cooling air con.arrr....'Siummm..DOT!' arrowed hit target board.went back out and tear down the CP.we get to book out early due to yesterday's incident.took the shuttle bus to causeway point and walked back home.

saw many couples hand in hand with flowers in hand.it's just another valentine's that i probably spend watching tv or online doing stuffs.but it's enough cos i know there's you.sorry that i havent been able to reply asap.was busy and seriously cant find excuses.

anyway happy valentine's!hoped you smiled through this day.

'why gloom when you can smile?it brightens up others and some may even brighten up yours.'

i have only like 10 more minutes before i have to go change my clothes and book in camp. summary of what happened today:

Basically it's almost the same old things that took place. started with the setting up of laptops on the CP (Command Post) which is actually a big square truck which opens up to big box for us to be inside doing stuffs. kinda like transformers ya? haha.so we removed everything from the planning room and moved it into the 'transformed' vehicle. quick tired but thanks to the cup of coffee i took i managed to pull it through.

while we are ending the whole thing. people from other platoons (or bunks) starting to wear their civilian clothings and left the camp. We were quite frastrated as we had been doing alot of stuffs and this is how we are being treated. I must admit that that OC (officer commanding) is very biased against my platoon. just like what brigade commander said.'There are no bad soldiers only bad commanders.' i just hope that the next camp he will be in wont suffer the same fate as we did. luckily he will be gone on 25th. should have a major celebration and maybe fireworks! just joking. but i still felt happy. i actually smiled to myself.

anyway tomorrow's valentine's so just want to wish you a happy valentine's day. There are rumours that there would be nights out tomorrow but it's not confirmed. somemore there are other activities for you right?i guess this would just have to wait..

'words may carry meanings but actions are much better'

woke up by dad at 8am.he thought that i was going out.went back to ZZzz.mum came over and called me up.again she thought i was going out.didnt went back to ZZzz this time.lol.

well.didnt do much today except for the online application for NTU.i realised i had alot of Bs.i think 19 of them.lol.just a few more marks to get As.too bad then.online all the way till late afternoon.

took my 'ultimate' relaxation and played PS2 for awhile before having dinner.watched tv and listened to songs up till now.

last entry for this week.dont think i can return home to update for this coming week.Exercise Phalnet coming up.this probably means that i will be spending valentine's in camp.good planning SAF.sometimes i really wish that i can do things without hesitation.i am going to try this again.somehow the feeling's the same as before.

'Can i date you out?'

yet again woke up last.eveyone was in their new year clothes except for me and mum.mum was KLKKing.did my wash-up and sat down for breakfast.took 1 kosong and 1 egg prata.

first coffee of the day.went toilet to do business + bathe.halfway done can hear the kids screaming away.haha.my nephew was already waiting for me in my room when i came out of the bathroom.asked me to let him play PS2.tried.tried.tried.when we finally get to play.'Lai go already.' haha.tough luck kid.

went over to nephew's house near vista point.the house was quite empty.if i have the chance i would draw something on the wall.was teasing my nephew all the way cos he said 'aiyo so many things' so i was 'aiyo so little things' haha.he seemed quite annoyed.haha.like they say.boys never grow up.hohoho.

went to my aunt's house in khatib.not exactly khatib maybe just the border of yishun and khatib there.my cousins just woke up.1 was playing his usual maple while the other is eatting meepok in the kitchen.took bacon bak kua there.super nice but must control cos of my ulcer.ouch.saw my cousin's stack of A-cash cards.i was wondering.if he didnt spend all those money i think he could buy 2 PS3s already.haha.

went over to my other aunt's in yishun right behind the mrt station.bought some chicken and duck rice from the S-11 before heading up.the kids were in my cousin's room.i just sat outside on the sofa and stare into air...until my mum come and asked me to go have lunch.havent even sit down say want to take photo.so i was pulled over and took a photo of the group(without me.)

finally went over to my aunt's house at yishun emerald.my aunts (who own the unit) with my sister and cousin went for gym session while the rest of us just laid back on the sofa and ZZzz.My uncle and the kids were playing poker at 1 corner and as they are kids.they tend to get noisy.very noisy.so i kept waking up and going back to ZZzz.

Went over to ah ma house for dinner.Dad was already there.seems like they closed the shop early which is good.more rest for them.drank coffee.had dinner.another battle unfolds..we started playing blackjack around 7pm.little shyan came around 8pm.at first she looked quite tired.heard from her mum that she cried on the way there.i dont know why but she always stare at me.do i look weird?let's hope that's not the case.haha.surprisingly she laughed when i teased her.phew.

'papa!pa!pa!pa!'suddenly shyan just went off calling her dad who was making faces at her behind me.gave her those small oranges and she just threw it back at me.lol.but at least she was smiling.and guess who came along.little faith.she just came over from sentosa and she's in the same mini chongsum.while playing poker halfway she treated me to a pineapple tart.a partly squashed one.lol.she gave me a goodbye kiss on the cheeks before i left.so sweet of her.

guess i had quite some luck today.won over 2 'red' notes. (thanks for the luck.)

dont think i will finish munching the nuts.too many of them.later tomorrow become ah du then jialat.good nitex.

'it's not the ending that i seek.it's the process that i cherish.'

it's the 2nd day of new year.as usual i was the last one to wake up cos i was the last to ZZzz.haha.what logic is this.did my usual stuff and went to change clothes.

took a cup of coffee.

went over to lao ma's house in khatib.she was ZZzzing when we reached so went over the other side to relax. my nephew was in the room playing laptop.went in and disturbed him awhile before i came out to drink my 2nd cup of coffee.not that sweet not that bitter.nice..cousin came.saw me.complimented that i looked like a bumble bee.but i still think i look like banana with peanut butter.lao ma woke up so went to greet her.she was in a good mood.but still cannot remember me.took breakfast after that.here's what breakfast looked like:

went over to ah ma house after that.played mahjong for awhile.won quite abit.more cousins came over to warm up the place.then they left to visit their individual relatives.went to take a nap on the sofa.woke up and realised that i drooled.ewk.shhh...faith came along.she wore those mini chong sum.super cute.brought her downstairs to mac.came back up sweating.it's like human weighs training.she look so mini beside me.lol.play blackjack all the way till 9pm.no win no loss.relatives going to visit my house tomorrow.

'Maybe it's all in the gene that gave excessive thinking'

It's de 1st day of new year and i already caught a flu. luckily it's not that serious. things happened today:

woke up with a slight headache. greeted my parents on the way to brush teeth. ouch. the ulcer's still there. checked emails and stuff before i sat down at the dining table for breakfast. as usual we will turn vegetarian on de 1st and last day of new year. the only difference is that i am sitting back at home instead of the usual grandma's house. her leg isnt fully recovered yet so mum helped her cooked this year. well i guess mum's a great cook almost up to the usual standard. but hor...where's the fa cai???the black strands that i always dig and dig for. but nvm la. i am not that picky afterall.

took some photos(with my dad's camera) then went over to grandma's house. it's super sunny and hot today. good day for a tan i guess. sat beside grandpa and he starts doing what he's best at. story telling. haha. watched tv for awhile before we left to go to pay respect to my great grandparents whose ashes are located at buona vista. opposite where i used to go for my attachements. as i walked past the familiar kopidiams and shops i suddenly visualized myself going for lunch with my attachment friends. lol. prayed. i prayed quite long this year. think i have alot of things to say. haha naggy.

came back. super hungry. mum went and warmed up the vegetarian food and cooked some noodles for us. finished eatting. 'Ring.Ring.' it seems that my uncle has decided to drop in and visit us. he only stayed for a short while. apparently he was quite tired. played PS2 and ordered mac for dinner. had chicken foldover.

guess that's almost all for today.but i didnt grumble much this year.but i dont know why.lol.guess i was in a good mood despite the running nose and flu.

most importantly.you made my day.thank you.

it's you.

went back camp this morning for the division new year celebration which took place at the field there. we played some boring games like opening up ang baos to find chinese letters to piece them together to form new year phrases.

following that, the non-chinese participants went down. they have to draw out chinese phrases spelled out in english. eg. long ma jing sheng= dragon horse spirit/energy. some of them are very weird sounds abit funny. upcoming next is the liondance which is so-so lor.

went to cookhouse and ate some stuffs down there. BDE comm gave us ang baos which had $2 in them. i was quite surprised cos i thought there wouldnt be anything in it. along with the ang bao are 2 mandarin oranges. 1 of them i think is not ripe enough yet. taste super weird. threw away.

as usual ah bu talk talk talk until 12+ before we could book out. went out take bus. flagged bus. zooom~ right in my face. i dont know what happened but all i know is that those people at the bus stop were quite upset about this incident.

got home took a short bath then went down to grandma's shop. did abit of stock up and counter then close shop. these are rare occasions for the old people to rest. sometimes i just wish they could rest longer.

came up. tidied up my room. well at least abit. helped my mum with the steamboat ingredients.

i realise i look abit like chipmunk (especially the head) should be the hair.no.must be.haha.

am i shag or what?seriously coffee isnt working for me today.hope i can tahan until at least 12am.

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i am waiting..

was supposed to wake up at 8am but overslept due to the xiong exercise yesterday. i have so much complains about these bunch of people. just because of 1 psp lost they called down an investigation team to take photos and do all those stupid stuffs. most importantly they dragged us in and we have to stay back with them. eh when we lost 3 psp from our company we didnt call them down leh. we already let you check our bunks before the exercise liao still not enough ar?

CANT WE JUST GET SOME REST?!

after finally booking out, took taxi to aunt's housewarming in yiochukang. played with shyan with the saf biscuit, the way she reacted was cute. then went up to play with faith. she's super hyperactive and keeps dancing here and there. i stepped in and she imitated me. we did ballet, hip hop, superman, spiderman, batman and ultraman. cute. when we were about to leave she gave me a little kiss on the cheek. that certainly brighten up my er..night? sweet.

grandma was hospitalized due to a leg infection and prolonged fever. went down to de shop and tended for around 2 hours before i cannot tahan and went home to cook lunch. it was 3pm. in the end she had to be warded for observations. seriously hope it's nothing serious. went out to meet up with polymates for dinner at newton. ordered fried rice, stingray and satay. walked over to fareast and see see. wished all the best to Kelly. she's going to Perth for further studies. went back home and tadah.

going to NUH tomorrow early in the morning.big events coming up.stress level shooting up.