i am trying really hard..

some words i cant really possibly avoid..

hold on to me..

waiting for my efforts to be paid off..

i love you.

my one and only sunshine.


Tuesday 27th May

met up with my darling for dinner at causeway point.had a little argument with her mum so was trying my best to cheer her up and at the same time talk to her about the matter.hope i did comfort her at least abit?.

had tuna&bacon spaghetti while darling had her favourite carbonara.with lots of cheese of course. :) went to ntuc to check up the name of that small little herb.and i lost. :( haha.but i had fun with my girl.i hoped she did too.

she was having backache so we went all the way up to 5th floor and preparing to sit down at the empty place when the security guards came.wrong timing.so we went down to the benches right beside the arcade and sat down there.

chatted.tickled.snapped. :) i like the feeling of holding her by the waist. :) her parents picked us up and fetched me back camp.really felt like i was already accepted into her family.thank you.i love you and your family. :)

she gave me a kiss on my cheeks!. :) :) :)

wednesday 28th May

went causeway point with lewis, robin, joseph and ah bao for dinner.my darling came to causeway point to walk walk too.such coincidence. :) walked around before heading to burgerking to have her sundae pie. :)

i like the way you feed me. :)

gave her a kiss on her cheeks but i guess too many people so she's too shy.lol. :)

Thursday 22th May

had the first parade practice for SAF day.i think it's due to the hot weather and prolong exposure under the scrotching sun.i almost black out.luckily i hanged on and my vision slowly came back before we started marching again.phew~.

had a misunderstanding with darling.i promise it wont happen again.i will change.for both you and me.i promise. :)

Friday 23th May

made arrangement to go to the foodfair with my darling. :) BUT before that we went for a movie.

'MADE OF HONOUR'

ok the show's pretty nice.at least to me.the comedy content's there and the romantic part..was wonderful.when the movie came to the emotional scenes i turned abit emotional too.and darling's crying too.i love you darling.i love cuddling with my sunshine.

darling's having backache~.'xin tong ar..'walked down to ntuc to buy some honey roasted chicken to munch on.saw some 'unglam' aunty argument with the casher.we were intending to take bus back to yishun cuz we could eat on the bus but in the end we decided to take the train cuz the bus waiting time was taking too long and the weather was too hot.

waited for darling's parents outside burgerking.and guess who tagged along.heehee.it's little nicki~.haha.made our way to Singapore expo hall 05.

the foodfair's not bad.walked here and there to sample example the food.lol.have to thank darling's parents and aunt for buying so much food. :) so me 1 hand holding to darling and the other to nicki walked the foodfair.i am very happy. :)

after foodfair we went to ikea.aunt Doris wanted to go back but nicki insisted on going with us.cant bear to leave 'jiejie' luh.hehe.so after all the begging 'qiu qiu ni' she finally get to go. :)

we had alot of fun on our way with me and nicki as well as darling's mum trying to guess 'how many sheeps jumped over' lol.went to the cafeteria for dinner before walking around.shared fish'n'chips and chicken nuggets with darling.little nicki and darling's mum had the spaghetti while darling's dad had fish'n'chips.thank you for the dinner too. :)

had alot of fun walking around.especially with nicki's entertainment.and of course my darling. :) i love you.went to yishun emerald to send nicki home before going to darling's mama's house.

i guess i came at the wrong time cuz they were holding a meeting.serious atmosphere~.but i was playing with huanhuan and xixi.both of them are cute.after which darling's parents sent me home.paiseh paiseh have to trouble them.cuddled with my darling on the way back. :) love you.

shall update more tomorrow.

saturday part II

sent darling, dexter and nicki back up to aunt Doris's house.sit around and waited for my mum to tell me when they were going over to ah ma's house.poor darling have to go for her ballet even when she's very tired.. :( after her dad drove her to chongpang community centre i went over to my aunt's house and found out that they already left for ah ma house. -_- abandoned me again but it's ok cuz i have my 2 trustworthy 'chicken thighs' to bring me there.

*sweat*

had dinner and went home after that.

sunday

went to sembawang park with my mum and aunts for my usual jog.looking here and there finally saw my darling running with her mum. :) decided to run with her and i gave her mum a scare cuz darling's too tired to run up the slope so i chiong up and told her mum.lol.so sorry aunty.after they went to the workstation i went for another 2 rounds.then this time i gave darling a surprise from behind.lol.so sorry darling.

darling's uncle came and picked both darling and her mum for breakfast.i went for mine at the same old coffeeshop after my mum and aunts finished their yoga.went home after breakfast.visited grandpa before preparing to go to ah ma house for dinner.and my phone's giving me alot of problems.too many smses?.i dont know.lol.

met darling to walk pasar balam but it's kinda short.lol.so we walked around the neighbourhood before sitting down at the bench to help her with her patapon.jiayou you can do it de. :) after which her mum came and sent me to my ah ma house before heading for dinner.

monday

GUARD DUTY BLUES.

but luckily there's my darling to keep me occupied. :)

wednesday

our first month anniversary.i am seriously very very touched.if you notice hard enough there's abit tears in my eyes.lol.oh yea i am emotional.just that i dont show it infront of alot of people.haha.i guess i have been used to it.but i am very very happy this time.thank you so much my darling.i love you.i am serious.

wanted to give you a flower ring but somehow the string broke and i am left with the flower petal.i am so sorry.i will see what i can do.very sorry.hope you like the card.i love you baby.

*shall update more later on.*

sometimes i envy your friends.but i cant complain i should be satisfied with what i have now.damn am i selfish.

darling i know you have been stressed over school work,ballet and maybe over me.if i am giving you too much stress please tell me dont be afraid ok?.i really dont want you to feel all stressed up.maybe you are worried that somethings may sound hurtful to me but it's better to know it than being kept in the dark with you suffering alone.so please.i dont want to be a boyfriend who doesnt show concern about his girlfriend.i know sometimes i maybe naggy but i really wish to know stuffs that are bothering you i may not be able to help alot but i will try.i will try my best.

i aint a perfect guy and i guess i havent changed since poly years.i admit that i get jealous quite easily especially i dont know about everything but i am trying to change everything.give me sometime darling.

i love you.thank you for everything.

friday part II

went for the company cohesion at east coast park.went to meet Joseph, Cher, Henry, Lewis, QianBao and Fang Ming.Joseph drove his dad's lorry there.for Lewis and FangMing it's their first time riding on the back of the lorry.lol.quite smooth except for some bumps here and there which scared the 2 of them.lol.i was safe cuz i was sitting nearer to the driver.haha.

reached the bbq pit and chatted around.was abit bored and decided to go rent bicycles.$7 for 2hours which is quite cheap.it's been sometime since i ever rode any bicycles.lol.luckily never fall down.haha.

decided to help out with the cooking of the food.in the end my whole shirt was 'stained' with the 'chaota' smell.lol.took joseph's lorry back to angmokio before going over to nyp to wait for my darling.and she gave me a surprise by jumping at me from behind.lol.naughty naughty luh. :)

walked my darling home.i enjoy walking with you.chatting and looking at you. :) her parents offered to drive me home but i was quite reluctant cuz i smell of 'chaota' smell.in the end i ended up taking the ride.thank you. :) but i hope the car isnt filled with my 'chaota' smell.lol.

darling and her parents went to the 24hour coffeeshop near my grandma shop for supper.lol.me and my darling didnt order any stuffs.i was chatting with her parents and at the same time looking at her.poor darling.she was stoning away.must be very tired. :(

her parents drove me home.thank you again. :) seriously darling and her family are very nice to me.i am very touched.thank you. :)

Saturday

darling didnt went for the run cuz she's too tired.aiyo.'xin tong xin tong'so sorry should had let you sleep longer.today i am supposed to go to darling's aunt's house at yishun emerald for lunch.so have to prepare awhile longer than usual.haha.nervous nervous.took some fruits from grandma's shop.i was thinking of how many should i bring so in the end i brought 6 which sounds nice.lol.darling and her parents picked me up at northpoint outside burgerking. :)

met her aunt Doris.she's very friendly and i felt like home at her house.met nicki and dexter.nicki's super cute luh just like my darling.i think dexter and i have quite alot of stuffs in common that's why we clicked quite fast.hehe.

had a super nice and delicious lunch!.there was pineapple rice, cereal fish, asam chicken, baked beans,vege and potato soup~.yummy.thank you aunty christin for all the 'hao liaos'.we chatted over lunch and i really enjoyed it. :) especially when aunt Doris called me her son.lol.it felt warm like i was accepted by darling's family. :)

went around to look at the rooms designed by darling's mum(with darling's help of course :) i think nicki's room has the best design.very princess-ly.lol.dexter and darling were playing their psp while nicki was playing with the stressball.and then the balloon.she's very cute luh.hehe.

watched darling and her cousins' ballet concert.i was almost sticking to the television.hehe.my darling's pretty and you really dance very well. :) after that aunt Doris asked me to perform using dexter's guitar.lol.it's been sooo long since i ever touched any guitars.sorry for the poor performance next time i will practise then i will perform again. :)

dexter had tuition so darling's dad drove him there but he called back and said that the tuition's cancelled.lol.so he can continue with his psp-ing.lol.my mum and aunts went shopping and came back.decided to go swim so called me to ask whether i want to swim.then me and darling's family were gathering at the window there to look out for my mum and aunts.lol.

we went down.darling went to her dad's car to take something.and that something is a basket of fruits!.omg i was like 'woah!' cuz it's alot.aiyo next time no need buy so much okie?.she also have 2 glass containers of sesame with honey which is good for the hair and knees.thank you darling. :) we went to the pool side where my mum and relatives were.all positive comments from them.hehe. :)

brought my darling up to my aunt's house.there were only my cousin a.k.a jiawen and my younger sister.so sorry i think i didnt introduce you properly that's why we just sat there and talked among ourselves.darling told me that my younger sister's pretty.but she doesnt want me to tell her on the spot.hehe.shy shy darling. :)

went back down cuz nicki was looking for her 'jiejie'.her aunt introduced me to her neighbours and i saw the baby my darling's always playing with.super cute luh.chubby chubby.hehe.oh ya i almost slipped when i stepped on the floor mat.darling almost did the same thing when she went out.scared me luh.

took nicki and dexter to the playground.played with nicki and we planned to leave dexter who was so into his game.'dexter we are leaving~'.lol.he chiong all the way to our side.lol.

shall continue another day. :)

baby i hope i am not taking too much of your time.i know you have been feeling tired recently.if you are very tired tell me ok?.i dont want you to tire yourself out.i love you darling.i really do.

12th May Monday

i made my darling cried..i really hate myself..why cant i..argh..i am so sorry..but it's over.i guess.

13th May Tuesday

basically we were recovering computers and putting them back to life without any viruses.brought down toughbooks to reclone them for the virus thingy.

met my darling baby for dinner.brought her to the hilltop view hong kong restuarant at sembawang road.it's my first time seeing her with tied hair. :) you are so beautiful. (dont care about that ang mo okie?.i really love you so much..)

she ordered the fried rice with salted fish and chicken chunks.i had the fresh fish fried noodles.we shared a bowl of sesame paste. :) next time too full must tell me okie?.poor darling.so sorry.hope you enjoyed the dinner.i enjoyed it very much.just by looking you alone and being with you is sufficient. :)

walked back to yishun interchange then decided to take bus back cuz darling looks abit tired.i know you have been feeling tired lately.next time tired tell me okie?.must let you have sufficient rest.wanted to tell you some stuffs but your parents showed up so i just have to keep it to myself for now. :)

15th May Thursday

the worst day ever.was jumping over the borders of the street soccer court.i seriously didnt know it's super slippery so i slipped.held on.cant balance.leaned forward.timber~.*bang*got a few scratches on my leg but i continued playing.halfway through the game i was hit by the ball in the face.slipped and sat on my butt.what a day.

my darling called around 11am cuz i told her that i will say something about the 'A' company on tekong she visited.heehee.but it's nothing luh!.no scared no scared cuz i will protect you. :) sorry i had to hangup so fast cuz have to go for lunch. :(

then darling went for some secret mission.dont want to fill me in the details.hmph.lol.just joking.i went for a run in the evening.40minutes.i sweated more than usual guess it's probably due to the leg injuries this morning. -_-''

watched tv and waited for darling to do her tutorials.aiyo tired must say luh then we can go rest earlier luh.want you to focus in class.have more 'jing sheng' in class luh!. i love you.

16th May Friday

didnt have enough sleep due to stomache. -_-'' woke up at 2.30am.went to toilet.came back.cant sleep go back toilet again.and the cycle continues.i think i went in and out like 5 times?.lol.finally at 4am i got into lalaland.woke up at 6.50am.seriously not enough sleep..so i dragged myself to the toilet with the eyes closed.

had a 5km run.i was kinda of struggling.feel like walking then i sort of dont want to stop.lol.in the end i managed to reach the stadium but was abit slower than usual.haha.okie!.got to go cook my noodles for lunch!!!.hungry hungry hungry.

my darling's dad just won something on 987 fm radio luh!.omg.hehe.take care in school darling.love you miss you. :)

woke up and turned around.where's my alarmclock???.it seems like my dad took my alarmclock away and didnt wake me up!!!.haha.cant blame him though.so i sat up and read darling's sms.then i looked at my parent's room.

room lit.ok mum's already awake so i hurried and touched up abit on the card i made.then i gave her along with the hongbao ($600) haha.she counted the 12 50bucks notes happily.i dont know whether she liked my card cuz it's been sometime since i made any for her.sorry mum i will do more in the future. :)

was webcaming with darling in the afternoon.hahaha.super fun luh.and my darling's super cute (i know you gonna say you are not but you definitely are.get used to it okie?. :) took some photos.hehehe.she showed alot of her soft toys and skippy!.so cute luh.but i dont mean 'that' part.poor skippy.shy shy luh.hahahaha.

went to bathe.and mum took out my baby photos and exhibit them.hahaha.R21 pictures somemore hahaha.i also saw sunshine's childhood photos so cute. :)

went over to ah ma house for dinner at the coffeeshop opposite.it was filled with alot of people and as you know.the more people turning up for dinner the more dissatisfied people there will be.waited and waited.some came later but had their food served earlier.i am ok with it but just that i was hungry to the point i became sleepy. -_-zzZZ

soon the food started rolling in.hehe.first up:Braised pig trotters.oooo.we never had such a dish at this restaurant before.my aunts and i were aiming the fatter parts while the other cousins and sisters aimed the lean part.haha.

second on the roll:vege(i think it's xiao bai cai)quite ok but abit too salty.haha.thirdly:deep fried yam paste with fillings.i used to dislike the yam but i started to start my addiction to this yammy paste a few years ago.haha.

the rest i will update some other time.

thank you for everything.
love my darling. :)

Wednesday 7th May

my baby had a misunderstanding with her parents.(hope you dont mind me using it here.)honestly speaking i was quite worried.things went to the extent of my baby crying.i read baby's previous posts and i felt like hugging her and telling her she's not alone anymore.i dont want to see her sad.

and when i asked she doesnt want to let me know about the details.maybe because she was afraid of me worrying too much but it actually made me felt bad.i felt quite useless cuz i cant even console someone i love.

through my endless asking and naggy-iness she finally told me.please tell me in the future ok?.i dont want you to be sad.i am here to share your troubles and stuff.i might not be able to help much but i will definitely try my best to solve your problems with you and comfort you.so promise me ok?.

of course i will do the same.actually to tell you the truth i have never opened myself.i was almost the same.keeping everything to myself but now i am speaking words from my heart.i love you. :)

Thursday 8th May

i didnt know what really went into me.maybe it's because of the stuff yesterday.i was afraid of making my baby angry and so how i somehow keep repeating and repeat my stuffs.sorry baby i know you dont like me apologising but i really feel bad for making you feel as if i doubted you.no more next time.i promise. :)

Friday 9th May

this is the day.my brigade commander is leaving.he's really a good leader and he knows his men well unlike some people in my company.i felt kinda sad when he was making his farewell speech.hope he ends up somewhere good and then he can lead the men there.

3rd May

yes..finally ended the operation.at least for my unit.i was very happy it's over.other people were like giving me the 'please take me with you' faces.sorry guys tough luck i guess.heeheehee.

somehow my shift ended at the wrong timing.Justin's taking over me so i cant put my stuffs in his car!.omg.oh i mean oh our god.so in the end i have to wear the whole webbing home.by bus and train.

i wonder how pairs of eyes were on me while on bus and train.i guess the public dont usually see how 'operationally ready' we are huh.but who cares i am on my way back to paradise!.yes!. :)

reached home.took my bath.checked online stuffs and went to sleep after smsing my sunshine.poor thing never have enough sleep luh.

woke up and went over to ah ma house.had dinner.came back.had a chat with my sunshine. :)

4th May

woke up at 8am.watched abit of Japan hour before i started preparing to go out.going to fetch my sunshine to her ballet class. :) as expected the gate was closed and i couldnt find my super 04 admin card.lol.

heard her voice so decided to hide behind the pillar to 'surprise' her.lol.i think they were walking quite slow then i was like peeping where they are.then miss sunshine saw me.aww.plan A failed.

accompanied Alicia and waited for her to take cab home.poor Alicia fell into the sea.but luckily the 'luo han head' on her knee isnt very big.but still i think must be quite painful.after that on our way to northpoint to get sunshine's plaster for her ballet.poor sunshine.got new blisters. :(

after which we took 169 to sembawang community centre.she tried resting her head on my shoulder.lol.so cute.and yes i will try to eat more so you wont complain it's 'bony' lol.

'WOAH!' where's all the HDB flats gone?!?!.oh our god.it really seems like i havent been here for sooo long.sembawang community club is still..i mean almost the same as last time.ooooo so there's the ballet classroom.hmmm..maybe we did met before.i used to go there for guitar lessons on sunday afternoons too.lol.

while i was leaving the place i met sunshine's mum who gave me a bottle of 'liangteh' and a palm seed which is for 'pin an' and ward off evil.thanks alot aunty!. :)

and while waiting for bus 169.bus 882 came.then a girl alighted.i looked at her.she looked at me.i think we were staring at each other for like 5seconds?.lol.it's sunshine's childhood friend.but i was seriously stunt cuz i thought she was in the classroom then i was like 'then who's this then?'lol.i think she smiled then i like half smiled?.i dont know cuz my brain wasnt turning fast enough.lol.so sorry.lol.

went back to visit grandpa.as he was having his lunch i decided to leave early.went all the way to block 130 to 'dabao' lunch.the sun's sure hot.of course it's hot what am i talking about.lol.i think i almost melted down there.bought chicken rice for dad and 'wanton mee' for me and mum.mum have extra 'liaos' to add so didnt buy alot.lol.

went to ah ma house in the evening.meet up with sunshine to pass her the goodies from Taiwan.hehe.walked her home and something special happened. :) that was the first time i hold a girl's hand.i was super nervous.lol.i was scared she would be freaked out but she appeared to be calm.lol.

it felt nice and i was energized by it!.lol.that sounds funny luh.lol.halfway there mum called to tell me that i was going to be abandoned.haha.but continued walking back to her house before walking back to take my belongings and walking over to take bus home.lol.

a wonderful day to note.

6th May



woke up.supposed to go for a run but was feeling lazy so i just lazed around.lol.mum summoned me to go out to civic centre with her to help her with the groceries.and luckily i went.the stuffs were quite heavy.

bought mac for lunch.i had chicken foldover and mummy called it 'chicken folder'.super funny and cute luh.lol.

a special something for a special someone for a special day. :)